Cervical Dysplasia

[manicmousy]

I'm 38 and have a 3 yr old daughter and have been married for 7 years. I started getting paps around age 18, and have gone every year. last year, when I was 37, I had my first of several abnormal paps.
I've been positively dx'd with HPV and mild dysplasia. My OB is only doing one day at the office every week, so i usually deal with her associate, and he told me that my body should have resolved itself in this amt of time. I had my first colposcopy in Jan of 2008, had 2 normal paps, and 2 more abnormal...now last tuesday i had my SECOND colposcopy, and OMG i do NOT want to go thru THAT again! it was more painful than LAST year! i'm anxiously awaiting the results for this biopsy. hopefully today or tomorrow, because of the holiday today.
I just feel they're looking for something. like cancer. i'm scared. i'll know tomorrow or wednesday the latest. my husband feels that if it were cancer, they'd have called me already. IDK...
Where did this come from? this is my second marriage, and i've only been with my first husband & my current husband. How long can HPV lay in wait? 5 years? 10 years? longer? i had the Mirena IUD for 9 months. i had it out last year. thought it would make my heavy periods better, but it made them heavier & last longer.
I had IVF 2ce to get pregnant with our daughter. could something there have caused it? i wish i knew how this happened.
i have no answers. it's frustrating & scary. I think either way...I will be having a partial hysterectomy they will take the cervix & uterus & leave the ovaries, so i don't go into premature menopause.
thanks for reading...i'm glad i found this place. i felt like i was alone. i'm glad i'm not.
~M.